Changes

I have a problem with change. I hate it. I'm a Libra (the scales), and about the only thing I believe about any of that is that I need balance. I crave it. I require it. I seek neutral, the status quo. So when something happens that shakes up the balance I have established, I don't handle it well. There are things I can prepare myself for really well and the transitions tend to go smoothly, but other things... it's not quite as pretty.

I haven't publicly announced it yet, but I started working on June 5th for the Academic Programs office in the College of Agriculture and Life Sciences at NC State! CALS is the college that housed my major, so I was really excited to be able to work at State, first of all, and, secondly, to be able to work for a office that I had some experience with. So here I am, in my third week of the real world and this change has been pretty smooth so far. It'll probably hit me when everyone is going back to school in the fall, because, honestly, it kind of just feels like a summer internship. Except it's actually my life now. Weird.

Spending this summer away from Harrison... not so smooth. It's strange being away from him because I'm used to my best friend being around to buy me food get food with me and take me on adventures. Even last semester when he was student teaching, I still saw him almost every weekend. I'm really learning to make the most of the times I do get to see him now. It hasn't been uncommon, and it won't be uncommon, this summer to go two or three weeks without seeing him. I know I can't complain too much because there are tons of people out there whose boyfriends, girlfriends, or spouses are further away than that or deployed, but it's still tough to get used to (especially when your love language is quality time).

What I've found helps me keep a positive attitude, however, is writing down something I'm grateful for every morning. In the notebook I carry with me, I write my piece of gratitude along with a Bible verse for the day. Holding tight to the fact that God isn't setting us up for failure or hurt is something that keeps me in good spirits, even when I miss Harrison a ton!